It has been snowing here in Texas and let me tell you it has been cold, icy, and boring! I have also been extremely lazy and I have done nothing productive these last few days. We were released early from work on Monday and today is Friday as I am writing this, and let me tell you what I’ve done this week. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! I have a full list of things I should be doing but baby I just can’t seem to get it done. I need to start cleaning up my room and organize since I will be moving soon. I also need to finish a blog post that I have been working on for a week. I need to go through my clothes and shoes because let me tell you I have an unreasonable amount of clothes and shoes, mainly shoes but that’s not the point. The point is I have a lot of stuff to do and I also have A LOT of goals to achieve. I know I don’t have to achieve them right this second but, I do have to start getting myself in a position to receive the amazing goals and blessings coming my way. I need to start disciplining myself in a way to be able to handle it when it comes, but as of this week I will give myself grace for all the lazy days because I needed those days. I ended up using one of those days to express to my friends about how I truly feel. I told them about how I am truly in a transition period and I lowkey hate it while simultaneously loving it because that means I am changing and becoming better and walking into my dream life.
Transition periods are super weird, especially this specific one for me personally. I am turning 22 years old in about 2 weeks and let me just say that I am having mixed feelings. One of my high school friends has a baby, one of them is a teacher, another is about to be 30 years old. I have friends that are 30 years of age, I can have a friend that is my parents age! It is making me nervous man, I am overwhelmed, I can create my own life and style without having to hear anyone's bullshit. I have the freedom to be myself and walk away from people, jobs, and places that no longer serve me. I am enjoying it because of those amazing factors but I am also at a middle standpoint because my body, face and style are changing. My face is changing its hollowing out, while also becoming more rounded. My body is changing, my hips are growing as if it is getting ready to birth a child. My style is also changing, I don't know my new work style, well I do but my budget can’t support it, so instead of looking and dressing like my Latina teachers that dress like baddies, I dress like an older woman who has no sense of style.
Everything about this time is just weird for me. Hopefully I am not the only one who feels this way, like this is a major time to level up and change. If you are feeling like this though, leave a comment and let us know how you are dealing with this period. Or even let us know how this transition period feels for you or what you're experiencing. Anyways to all my Clueless Babes, have a great rest of your day, week, weekend! I will talk to you guys later ! Much love!
Signing Off
-Clueless
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