Hello Hi welcome back to the clueless babes blog, let me just say I apologize for being away for so long. I have had A LOT change in my life. I have had to deal with a lot of adjusting and figuring things out. I am in a new chapter of my life and I don’t know what I am doing. I am trying my best to figure out how to manage money, how to say no with this new space I am in, and how to put myself first. I see now that it is very easy to become a slave to working, especially when you have to pay bills.
I see now why some people's hopes and dreams go off to die because I have let the blog slip away a bit from me. If you don’t know, I currently work in a school as a permanent substitute teacher, and that means I do more than a regular substitute but less than a teacher, in some cases. I was at first working as an English substitute teacher alongside my old English teacher Ms. Johnson, if you see this hi, I love you. She was making the PowerPoints and lessons and all I had to do was present it to the kids, hand out the homework, go through the PowerPoint, have discussions, but I never really had to do much other than that. Occasionally I would have to grade a quick quiz, but that was basically pretty easy. The hard part came when I was no longer in the English department with help and I went to the arts department. I am now a theater teacher and I am struggling to adjust and get comfortable with this new position. I have a whole new group of kids, I have to come up with lessons and activities by myself and I am struggling.
I realized that I love English because it is a discussion, it is intellectual and you can learn a lot about people and the way the minds of the younger generations work. Also I had support so if I was having trouble I could call someone. I could walk across the hall and ask for advice or critiques. In the theater position, I am alone. I am surrounded by the Spanish department and 1 art person who I do not like due to the fact she came into my classroom when I was in the English department and acted a whole ASS! I don’t know if I can share the statement I had to write for the situation but I have not looked at her the same since.
Anyways I am trying my best but even my manager is always busy and always stressed. I can see her always on 10 and I don’t think she has relaxed in MONTHS! I mean her head is always on a swivel, always moving around its very quick interactions with her. VERY quick. I don’t think she realizes that she NEEDS a break. She is very powerful and very hard working but I doubt that she forces herself to take breaks. Anyways less rambling about my manager, this is probably part 1/10 of what the fuck has been going on in my life. So once again, sorry that I have been away. Sorry that I have been MIA but I am back now I am back and better and I pray it stays that way! Much love to my clueless babies!!!
Signing Off, XO
-Clueless
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