My life recently has been incredibly active. I have been doing so much outside of this blog, my job, and being happy. This past week in Texas (first week of February) it was ice on the roads, Iykyk. For 3 days, school was out and no one had to work, that means I was home with my mother for 3 whole days. If you have read just about any post on my feed, you know how I feel about this woman. I know she's my mom and I shouldn't have issues with her but lets be realistic, moms are shit sometimes.
Specifically over the ice days I have been in fight or flight mode, super on edge and in a state of survival. I just trying to make sure I can exist without having an anxiety attack or slipping into a state of depression. SO, while actively just basically trying to stay afloat my memory was non existent. I was frankly just existing, having conversations with people and having no recollection of them. I missed a scheduled time to work because I forgot I was scheduled, but I probably wouldn't have made it anyways due to the fact that I was having a panic attack. I have also been working on moving and getting my own place to benefit my mental health and state of wellbeing. Simultaneously, I have been overwhelmed with the amount of love, support, and appreciation I have been receiving during this time of change and transition.
My birthday is also right around the corner (by the time I've uploaded this it has past) and let me tell you I have very mixed emotions about my birthday. I want to celebrate it, but then I don't, I want to get all dressed up and cute and go out but I also would just rather skip over the whole day. I cannot possibly deal with anymore birthday disappointment, whether it is someone dragging my birthday or not, or dragging how I should or shouldn't celebrate it. So I state all this to say that, I am sorry if I am distant or unresponsive, I am sorry if this page has not gotten the attention that you expect or any advice. Luckily I will be more active over the next few months. Leave a like or comment and email us if there is anything you would like to discuss or even share, you can keep it anonymous or leave your initials in the email. We'd love to hear from you.
P.S. I attempted to make this go live second week of February and it did not happen due to life happening but I'll update you guys with everything soon! Sorry, love you guys byeee!
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