Just Keep Swimming!

One of my biggest challenges that I’ve encountered as an adult today is finding myself and not putting so much pressure on myself. I’m currently 21 years old and I feel like I have NOTHING going for myself. Every time I feel as if I’m about to go somewhere something happens and it all stops. Now I believe I have undiagnosed ADHD so I struggle a lot with finishing out projects, I typically start something when I get a random boost of energy at about 2 am, but come next week I’ll have completely forgot about it. Now my family has recently been getting on me about not finishing out projects and not knowing what I want to do, on the other hand they tell me to slow down and that I have time to do all the things I want to do. I feel so much pressure when I hear those things because I genuinely don’t believe them. I see classmates from high school starting their careers, and getting their own places, finding a forever partner, and getting engaged/ married. When I see it all I feel so left behind, and honestly like a complete failure. I have to actively remind myself to try to convince myself that I am not behind, and just because I chose a different path doesn’t mean I am any less than the next person. Just because I didn’t know for sure what I wanted to do in high school doesn’t mean I won’t figure it out one day. One day I will know exactly what I want to do and how to execute it. One day I’ll have my career and I’ll be so in love with it! But as for now, I’m just going to have to keep going until I get there. So this is your reminder that once again you are not alone. If you feel lost or stuck or like your life is aimless, just try new shit! When you do you’ll figure out what you do and don’t like, then one day while doing something you do like… you’ll have a great idea. Maybe you’ll even meet an amazing person, and from then on your life will completely change. So just keep swimming, keep going. You’ll figure it out one day! Have a great rest of your day.

Signing off, -Clueless